BrokenAisling

To this reality I must be resigned; The words I speak are not always mine, And these lies devour my mind. I truly wish to be kind, Despite my tongue being tied with twine, For our hearts are intertwined, And for me the lies are impossible to unwind. But I'm trying not to whine. And these lies are devouring my mind. Without you the sun would've never shined, To me you are divine, For our hearts are intertwined. I'm terrified of what I'll find, Trapped in my own confine, And these lies devour my mind. Sometimes I wonder if my brain is blind, I just hope one day I don't cross the line, For our hearts are intertwined And these lies devour

I don't see the world the way you do. Sugar sweet candy coating, So used to the taste you don't even notice, As you wander through the motions. You don't see the world the world the way I do. My fantasies, my dreams, They dance before me, In a world overflowing with traps, Pulling me further and further away.... I dont want to see the world the way you do With your boring eyes And blank expression I can see the energy draining from your soul. You don't want to see the world the way I do. The pain (truth) would break you.

My mind is not as it should be, And I’m willingly losing control My emotions taking over. And I wonder how I got here Trapped in cage after cage of my own making, Decorated with black lace and roses I fooled myself with the beauty And lost myself in lies I came here to escape my hell But is it really that much better? And I’m forgetting who I am for you, And every time I cry next to you I try to remember why. You were imitation gold, And now the rust shines through.

What is reality? Except an idea created by the subconscious to make life seem a little easier. What are these words? Except ink scratched into a mutilated tree to make my mind seem sane. Who am I? Except a psychotic need to understand How I was created and why I exist. Who are you? Except a stranger on the street How does anyone belong this world? What is this world? Except a hell on earth so to speak Lost souls wander here. What is god? Except a pure figment of human imagination Even if he's real you've already sinned.

I was thrust into this world Screaming like most all of us. This was not a life I chose and it was not the life I wanted. But it is the life I was given. Therefor I do what I can, For death is not an option. As I can not let them win and death would simply be giving up. This joke of life can not defeat me. This make-believe god won't win and my oppressors will fall. I saw the truth of this world the pain, rage, and terror of it all. And to survive this I must forget. And live this life filled with joy hiding what I have forgot. Forever lost in my mind I shall laugh here and play blissfully Hiding behind the billowing clouds

I am Queen. Queen of my personal hell of course. But Queen nonetheless. Alas there is always a King in front, Feeding me riches on a string. Am I even Queen?

Smoke lined sanity Embrace the mortality With every inhale demons suffocate Smoldering in my personal hell. I have no need for it But my brain wraps into wired cages Entrapping my tired soul.

I don't know who I am. I never have. My insanity has defined me and now I must wander this world without a soul. What is a soul? How does one do more than simply exist? I can make my mind free, If I forget everything I can laugh for a minute. But what worth is that? This society controls me, I don't need to be anything else if I make money. I am no one apart from my job.